In Between

4 years ago, i was working as a systems administrator for a mobile content provider. it was probably the first time i knew what the term 'burnout' really means. i blogged about my frustrations with the job every single day. here is an example: anywhere but here. July 11, 2005 I rode a tourist bus to work (huge bus, working a/c, province destination). The lady next to me told the conductor that she's going to San Pedro, Laguna. 98% of me wanted to say the same thing. I just can't bring myself to work today. I wanted to escape, go somewhere quiet where no one would find me. I wanted to see mountains, feel the wind in my hair and witness a breathtaking sunset.... Two words: REALITY BITES As I dragged my body towards the bus door, I can't help but curse the world (and wishing that the lady who sat next to me to choke on her peanuts). I'm broke, hungry, alone and sick. Plus I forgot to bring my umbrella. I'm beginning to hear the Twilight Zone theme song in m

i haven't been able to come up with updates for the last 3 days as my very busy schedule has not permitted me to think of anything creative to make of the events that have transpired. then again, i really have nothing new to say. i don't have much of an interesting life. i saw the trailer for julie and julia last night. it's this movie about a blogger named julie powell, who attempted to cook every single recipe in julia child's cookbook, Mastering the Art of French Cooking. she detailed her triumphs and misses in her blog which became popular among the foodie bunch and eventually got a book deal for it. i really don't know julia child but from what i've gathered after googling her, she was quite popular back then for her cooking show, The French Chef. As someone who grew up watching Wok with Yan, i guess i understand what the fuss was about. well Wok with Yan doesn't exactly have the eccentric elements of The French Chef (although mister yan DOES hav

once again, a day full of surprises. i just wish they're not work-related though. it would've been easier to feel more enthusiastic. on a happier note: my bed is now an official part of my brother's room. my mom exchanged my mattress with their old one. it was a lot softer than mine so no complaints there. i woke up this morning feeling refreshed and slightly annoyed with my alarm clock. but all was good. i slacked off a bit during work hours as i have this client meeting (again) which really destroys my momentum. i'll just have to get everything done by tomorrow. i'm not the slightest bit worried about that. i guess i've finally learned what detachment really means. ROOM UPDATE: my walls are pink and they were able to finish the first coating of coco brown for my cabinets. i am still worried for some reason. it is not generating the same effect it had in my head. uh oh.

went mall hopping today. as i wasn't able to buy anything, it's safe to conclude that i had a pretty dull time. although i did enjoy lunch....and dinner. great food. great conversation. but no cash to buy anything. what a loser. my bills are getting larger and larger every month. i really need to stop using my credit cards...at least for just a couple of weeks so that i can keep up with my payments. but it's so hard to do that...so much more when i visited this "Everything at Php85" (Php85 = $2.00 roughly) store. i was soooooo mesmerized by all the items. pretty useful household stuff that are priced significantly lower than those powerhouse department stores. i'm blabbing again. i have no idea what to write today. it was just so blah. Everybody come and play Throw every last care away Let's go to the mall today - Robin Sparkles (a.k.a. Robin Scherbatsky, How I Met Your Mother)

just got home after a nightcap with a friend. i hurriedly changed to my sleep clothes (and by sleep clothes, i mean a really old pair of shorts and an almost-but-not-quite see-through loose shirt) and climbed my sister's bed. apparently, they can't move my bed to the spare room yet as the carpenter or whoever, needs a special tool to dismantle the darn thing. it is getting more annoying really as this task is supposedly done days ago. tsk tsk tsk. was also able to watch g.i. joe. having played the toys when i was a kid, i was able to enjoy the movie. it wasn't great...but i was quite entertained. didn't like the cheesy parts though. scarlet had the worst lines (the material wasn't all that anyway). gordon-levitt was scary. channing tatum had nice abs. and sienna miller is just gorgeous. she reminded me of sienna guillory, since she had that brunette thing going on. very jill valentine. room update: my walls are pink. as in bubble gum pink. i'm v

i was about to go to work when my mom suddenly appeared out of nowhere to ask me about my room renovation. I spent about 3 hours last night hauling all my clothes upstairs so i wasn't at all thrilled about the ambush. then she mentioned that the repainting will start this morning and my irritation melted in an instant. we were trying to decide which shade of pink to use. surprisingly, she wanted a darker color compared to what i originally planned. something about it's contrast with the coco brown that i wanted for the cabinets. well i just wish it will all mesh well together in the end. i'll post some of the pictures i took before my room gets a make-over. my loser cell phone camera needs a special kind of USB cable. i seriously need a new digital cam. donations are most welcome.

waking up earlier than usual took its toll. i was a grumpier than ever. but i had to come in early for another round of endless discussions with our dear client. i have a sinking feeling that this will not be a good day. coffee didn't help of course. but that's sort of a given. i've been reading the 7th book of the Harry Potter series (shut up, i like it) for 2 nights in a row. i'm 75% done. reading has always been a way to calm me down. Harry Potter is the lightest and cheeriest book in my shelves right now, i figured this would help me deal with my otherwise fucked up demeanor. of course, i'm being ridiculous. don't bother to care. every time i get the urge to show any kind of fury towards my job, i block it by constantly thinking about my plan. over and over and over again. it was just last night that i committed myself wholly to it and i am determined to stick with this plan even if it kills me. and so it begins.