In Between

week 30 was full of surprises.  work was starting to pick up and i found myself rendering a few extra hours just to finish tasks.  it was alright.  i'm kind of used to that anyway.  plus, i like the feeling of being a bit busy.  not too busy, though.  just enough to keep me feeling productive and less incompetent. i participated in our latest "olympic" event at the office last tuesday.  it was super crazy and fun and my team won!  wooohoo!  i never win anything so this is just amazing  for me.  happiness. much later that night. i saw the most anticipated blockbuster of the year...the last installment of the Harry Potter franchise.  i was able to watch it in imax.  i loved it.  though there were some weird moments that were not part of the book.  but it was alright.  it was the perfect ending to a beloved series.  they did an amazing job and i am a proud fan.   it's the end of an era! i did get to see some old faces this week.  ika and i grabbed a few bottles

i will not try to make an excuse on why my writing has suddenly stopped. nothing seems to come out of my system.  to be honest, i have not woken up fully from my dream state and moving along life as a zombie pretending to act normal is very exhausting.  it never occurred to me how tired i was until i noticed that on rare occasions that my day is free, i always end up just sleeping through it.  if i am not sleepy, i'll just lay in my bed and let my imagination consume my entire consciousness.  it was a little disturbing, even for me. i keep telling my friends that i am simply not in the mood.  my interest in life just went pfffffft.  the enthusiasm is long gone.  and i don't have the faintest idea how to resurrect it. i may be coming off as emo, but that is the truth.  i just don't want to lie and say that i am having the grandest time these days.  i am not angry or anything.  i am not happy nor sad.  i am simply...not in the mood. strangely, it seems worse than anythi