weeek 22 - 29: gah
i will not try to make an excuse on why my writing has suddenly stopped. nothing seems to come out of my system. to be honest, i have not woken up fully from my dream state and moving along life as a zombie pretending to act normal is very exhausting. it never occurred to me how tired i was until i noticed that on rare occasions that my day is free, i always end up just sleeping through it. if i am not sleepy, i'll just lay in my bed and let my imagination consume my entire consciousness. it was a little disturbing, even for me. i keep telling my friends that i am simply not in the mood. my interest in life just went pfffffft. the enthusiasm is long gone. and i don't have the faintest idea how to resurrect it. i may be coming off as emo, but that is the truth. i just don't want to lie and say that i am having the grandest time these days. i am not angry or anything. i am not happy nor sad. i am simply...not in the moo...