In Between

before anything else, can i just share? my toenails are the most disgusting part of my body right now. practically screaming for a pedicure. lakas lang ng loob ko nag flip flops ako papuntang opisina ngayon . but yeah, gross. half zombie, half human today. my mind feels numb to my surroundings. good thing my "other" self seems active. years and years of practice finally paid off. ok i better explain. when i was really young, i had the lowest possible self-esteem. i was the middle child, so you can just imagine how that goes. i had a perfect younger sister whom everybody adored. i was just someone who simply existed for the sole purpose of making others feel good about themselves. as a result, i grew up an awkward child. i was always so lonely. nobody wanted to talk to me because i was weird and ugly. majorly ugly. no kidding. i always wished death upon me. of course, THAT didnt happen. so i resorted to other ways of escaping from the reality of my pathetic

People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated - Tom one of the better movies i've seen so far this year is 500 Days of Summer. the best thing about the film is that it took this really century old story (boy meets girl) and translated it so uniquely that gave it an interesting perspective for everyone. it was truly refreshing and very entertaining. gordon-levitt once again delivered well (he is getting cuter and cuter) and im sure i'll be seeing a lot of zooey deschanel look-a-likes in the coming months. im just so excited about this movie and i have been waiting for it come out. true enough, it did not disappoint. after the movie, i ate a very expensive meal at cyma. i had the spinach artichoke dip, lamb chops, acropolis pasta and a glass of chardonnay. yum says my stomach. "whaaaat the fuuucking helll $@!!!^%!!#%!$!" says my wallet. stomach was louder though. tomorrow is another work day that im dreading. so i'll make the most of my eve

i'm hating openOffice and Microsoft Excel simultaneously today. the former crashed while i was making an important edit...the latter needs a license. boo. while trying to decide which worksheet to waste time on, a surprise message from Globe came: Globe Advisory: Nakikiisa ang Globe Bangon Pinoy sa lahat ng biktima ng Ondoy at Pepeng. Munting handog, libreng load pantawag at text. it was so weird, i read it out loud to my entire team. 5 minutes later, i received 100Php load! woah!!!!! as someone who rarely can call/text due to lack of funds, this is a REAL treat. thank you Globe. mwaaahh

as mentioned before, i've been contemplating lately about my future. this is probably the hardest life-altering decision i have ever encountered...and it's killing me. last week, i thought i knew what i wanted. i knew what to do. it was crystal. somehow, as of this moment, i'm back to square one. i keep thinking about the last 4 times it happened. the weighing of pros and cons. the endless discussions with close friends. and finally, the painstaking task of finding the right template. the process wasn't easy...but i never felt any level of uncertainty about it . i was anxious about my future. but i wasn't fazed about the decision. 2 years ago, i was a content call center agent surviving life one coffee mug at a time. having been on top of the QA charts, i was allowed to choose a schedule that suited my lifestyle. i never worked at night. i breezed through my work as it didn't require me to think much. but best of all, i always had money which allow

i was trying to so hard to write last night but there was just too many tiny distractions: my allergies chat boxes full screen video chat (shoutout: googletalk video chat is kick ass!) how i met your mother season 5 episode 4 fringe season 2 episode 4 and 5 joshua jackson googling joshua jackson the way i am by ingrid michealson playing in youtube my painfully long hair learning the dance steps of the 'say a little prayer' segment from Glee anyway... i've been surprisingly more productive the last couple of days. maybe because my team is finally getting some kind of direction. or...maybe its the less traumatizing client meetings....or....maybe it's a PMS thing...who knows. it's still a good sign, right? when i was younger, i can multitask like hell. i don't quite remember where the motivation comes from, though, but juggling multiple tasks was like a breeze. it feels different when you start working. maybe because, back then, it was something i do to simp

what is up with Greenbelt malls nowadays? first there was that power cut and a dead guy in the street. then there's this unfortunate incident at Rolex GB5. my office is a stone's throw away from these places. scary shit.

the best place to spend sunday morning is in bed (with breakfast, but that's way too ideal). no contest. so imagine my dismay when i learned i had to wake up early to attend our family lunch. i was feeling a little light-headed the entire time. my allergy attack didn't help much either. grrr.... after lunch, i spent some good money (well credit) to this really gorgeous dress. other than that, nothing worth writing about happened. don't really remember much. all i know is that i did a great deal of walking around. this is partly due to the fact that i am dirt poor and can't afford much even if they're all on sale. bummer. i just realized this evening that my hair is waaaayyyy too long now. i can now feel it's heaviness. this is bad. i promised myself i will get a haircut in november. but somehow, i can't take this feeling of weight in my head any longer. aarghh....

having had multiple planned get togethers canceled today, a couple of colleagues and i decided to brave the divisoria market to get ahead with out christmas gift shopping. i was a bit nervous about this little adventure since we're divisoria virgins. plus, most petty thieves thrive on innocent looking kids with no sense of direction whatsoever. luckily though, nothing majorly traumatizing happened and we were all able to get home in one piece ...with several bags in tow. yeah! shopping love! it was really amazing. we started off pretty early...was stuck in traffic for a bit but got there a little over 10AM. did some window shopping.. then lunch. then bought everything...then got lost inside the mall for a good 15minutes or so. then got home around 3:30PM. whew! come on...that must have been some kind of a record, right? best of all, we scored some really cool stuff. however...of all the purchases, this was the most interesting one: Head Scratcher image is from here i

yesterday was my mother's 61st birthday. i was late, as usual. but i was able to buy her dessert (BTIC dark chocolate almond). my brother liked it. my yaya despised it. haha. for some reason, i decided to buy breakfast at the supermarket near our office this morning. unfortunately, i was inside when the power was cut. nobody knew why. i was stuck there for like 10minutes. i found out later during the day that the power cut happened around the same time this yet-to-be-identified man fell from a condotel near the mall and died. no idea if both incidents are related. but the power cut was kind of weird. anyway... i had one important task today: client meeting (again). fearing the inevitable, i promised myself a hearty lunch to brighten up my spirits before we, you know, walk the plank and take a deathly plunge. amici's spinach canelloni did not disappoint. my stomach was very very happy. special thanks to glenn for the gelati. yummm... the meeting was a big succe

i have about 20 minutes to write. this is the only free time i have for most of my working day today. i really can't take anymore of this bullshit. it's like one screw up after the next. fucking insane. yesterday, our dear client changed requirements again...for the nth time. which is fine really but what i hated about it was they blamed it on me. it was a classic 'saving face' moment for them. i was sooo pissed when they desperately tried to cover their asses by pointing their fingers in my direction. how lame. not to mention, stupid. damn bitches. nuff said. my room is finally ....FINALLY....finished. i officially moved back in last Saturday. i only have a small box left in my brother's room and a basket of clothes that need washing. that's also the reason why i'm writing again. i needed to get some things out of the way first. you know, to clear my head so i can move forward. hopefully i can post a minimum of one entry a day. i just read