In Between

  gusto ko na tuloy matuto mag gitara.  at kumanta.  at maging artista.  hahahahahahahahaha!!!! 

i am beginning to wake up from a very deep slumber.  will have a longer post soon.  but for now, i will leave you with a quote from Dance Dance Dance by Haruki Murakami which sort of summarizes the reason why i stopped writing for a while: "Nothing born of nothing.  I'd loved and been loved, but I have nothing to show.  It was a singularly plain, featureless landscape."

sadly, i must admit defeat. i will have to postpone the weekly blogs...indefinitely.   my enthusiasm for this effort has died.  a part of me wants to move forward, i dont want to give up.  but it's not enough to keep me focused on this project. i have no idea whats wrong.  ok...that was a lie.  i do know whats wrong.  i am simply not in the mood to disclose it.  so, for now, i will have to resort to adhoc blogging.  if i do end up reviving this routine, then awesome.  i will applaud myself.  but for now, i don't want to force it.  i could, but i cannot keep up with the stress.  maybe after march, it will get easier.

how can one really function when at the start of the year you already feel the blues?  i will not pretend that i am feeling oh so great.  but i will not be a bitch about it either... so here i am. first official work day was spent at home.  it was great, just chilling with my computer on my lap , trying to create mockups.  it was one hell of a task as i am still on holiday mode.  but i was able to manage.  other than a day when i just couldn't get out of bed, work week was pretty normal. so weekend finally came.  saturday, i attended an interment out of town.  it was an interesting commute.  after that, we decided to go to tagaytay.  this proved to be an even more interesting commute since it involved a long jeepney ride (alikabok sa fez galore) and the most uncomfortable van ever.  bongga sa experience.  pagdating namin dun, pumunta kami sa....STARBUCKS!  hahahaha!  i know it was ridiculous. ...

chos! syempre kailangan ma-drama ang title. to say that 2011 was eventful would be an understatement.  if you are an avid(?) reader of this blog, you are aware that i made a point to blog weekly.  having reread some of my former entries made me feel a little warm inside as it highlighted every mundane thing i did.  i had a pretty good run, even if i only reached week 30.  i still like to believe that it served its purpose.  made me feel that each moment of my life is precious and that i should be grateful for it. i can proudly say that i started 2011 right.  i did a bit of goal setting.  i listed restaurants i wanted to try.  habits i wanted to quit/start.  it was awesome.  i was feelin the good vibes.  but the awesomeness had an expiration date.  my writing started to wane around week 22 and eventually ceased by August.   i tried to revive it but it was no use.  as mentioned, i cannot fully elaborate on the reas...

i was supposed to blog every week, right?  whatever happened to that?  haha! well, long story short...august was a bad month and i'd rather not talk about it. moving on....september, not that glamorous either. although i do have some great pictures...which i will not be sharing.  i dunno.  maybe some other time.  or some other post. i am thinking of creating a new blog soon.  something that's more...profound?  hahaha!  not really.  i just want to reach out to a specific market.  but all that is still cooking up in my head and i don't have a lot of time lately to organize my thoughts. umm, updates!  i now have more work than i can handle.  but that's not new.  i've added a lot of items in my list of "awkward moments".  that's not new either. i am getting fat.  which is good.  but mostly because i am stress eating.  which is bad. overall, i don't feel healthy. overall, i am not exa...

i am actually contemplating on moving some old blog posts from a different blogger account to this new one.  i just read some of them and it was craaaaaazy.  i never really truly realized how fucked up i was(slash am) until today.   one of my favorite things was to quote movies.  i am sharing one from a ben affleck film titled "chasing amy".  one of my favorite movies ever.  i remember saying, "i wish i couldv'e written that one" enjoy! I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't ...