day 11.
this is a pretty late post but it's sooo damn hard to write when you have no internet connection any-fucking-where (well we do have an internet connection but i'm not allowed to abuse it...yet). anyway, i'm on my 11th day at my new job and it's been...really hard. although, i did expect to have a lot of adjustments prior to my first day, but man oh man! the PAIN. first, there was an issue with space. they put me in a cube thats fit for only 2 people. so they had to make adjustments for me which is a little embarrassing. i don't want to cause any trouble since i'm new and everything but i did nonetheless and i had no control over it which left me a bit frustrated.
then there was the learning curve. fuck. i'm familiar with life insurance which i think is an advantage of sorts but all their products are NON-LIFE. eep. i thought i was gonna have a heart attack with all the terms and shit. how will i document if i dont know the business? aaaarrrghhh effooooorrrrt.
last but definitely not the least, why do they have to sit me next to the most attractive person i've ever met in real life? he also happens to be VERY nice and quite a gentleman.
how. very. inconvenient.
dont get me wrong, like i said, he's very helpful and accomodating. very unlike most of the guys i've met in my life (who doesn't even come close to his level of attractiveness). it's inconvenient because how do you become friends with someone like that? like, if i need to ask something, he's the most reachable source but it might be deemed as me making "pa-cute" or too eager to get close to him. i have no malicious intentions naman (hindi ako ilusyunada. may tinatawag na standards and this guy is waaay out of my league so why even bother?), i just want to be friends, get acquainted with my colleagues like any other normal person. why does he have to be so pretty? this makes things so much harder.
on an interesting note...
my skin tone is in its darkiest state. someone just told me this in the bathroom "you are so dark!". oh well. it's true anyway so i'm not really all that bothered by it. should i be concerned though? what are your thoughts?
then there was the learning curve. fuck. i'm familiar with life insurance which i think is an advantage of sorts but all their products are NON-LIFE. eep. i thought i was gonna have a heart attack with all the terms and shit. how will i document if i dont know the business? aaaarrrghhh effooooorrrrt.
last but definitely not the least, why do they have to sit me next to the most attractive person i've ever met in real life? he also happens to be VERY nice and quite a gentleman.
how. very. inconvenient.
dont get me wrong, like i said, he's very helpful and accomodating. very unlike most of the guys i've met in my life (who doesn't even come close to his level of attractiveness). it's inconvenient because how do you become friends with someone like that? like, if i need to ask something, he's the most reachable source but it might be deemed as me making "pa-cute" or too eager to get close to him. i have no malicious intentions naman (hindi ako ilusyunada. may tinatawag na standards and this guy is waaay out of my league so why even bother?), i just want to be friends, get acquainted with my colleagues like any other normal person. why does he have to be so pretty? this makes things so much harder.
on an interesting note...
my skin tone is in its darkiest state. someone just told me this in the bathroom "you are so dark!". oh well. it's true anyway so i'm not really all that bothered by it. should i be concerned though? what are your thoughts?
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