rant for the day.

sometimes i wonder what would've happened if i chose to do something else with my life. if i pursued writing or acting or hosting. i dont have the required face value to be an actress or a host, but such jobs are not limited to TV. i could try to be a radio host or a radio actress. i'm not certain if radio has the big bucks but does it matter? i want to be able to enjoy what i'm doing and not care about the time or the work or the pain. i want to drink coffee every morning because i WANT to drink coffee and not because i NEED it to help me wake up. i want to turn on my computer because i WANT to use it and not because i NEED it to finish a deadline. i want to take the bus to makati because i WANT to go to makati not because i NEED to be there from 8:30-5:30.

wants vs needs.

when i was young, wants and needs were limited to material things. nobody told me about this complication.

then again, nobody tells me anything. when you're an adult, you are forced to learn things on your own.

how fucking annoying.

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